The Beginning

I've always wanted to be a mom. Growing up as the oldest child and grandchild on my mom's side, I was always around babies and kids. Before we were married I would constantly talk to Chris about our future kids. I knew I wanted to start a family sooner than later but I never thought we would actually be having a baby so soon! 


On December 11, 2012 we got an early Christmas present when we learned we were expecting. I knew it was a possibility that I was pregnant. Yet, I didn't expect it. I had spent so much time dreaming about a baby but I pushed the thought to the back of my mind knowing it would be better to wait awhile. Chris and I have been together for six and a half years but only married for 4 months. I knew we should enjoy our time as a married couple sans kids. Well, God had other plans :)


I took the pregnancy test one night after the gym. My period was 4 days late and I felt off. Right away I saw two lines beginning to form on the test. No way, I thought. 3 minutes later, the two lines were nice and clear. I was in disbelief. I decided to wait another half hour and then took the second test. This time the two lines were even clearer. Oh my gosh I am really pregnant! I couldn't believe it.


Chris texted me, "did you take the test yet?". 

"Not yet" I replied. I didn't want to tell him through text. 

Waiting for him to get home was awful. I had so many emotions going through me. Of course I was thrilled but it felt surreal. I was nervous of how he would react. Would he be excited? Or would he be upset? We hadn't been trying for this little baby. {I should clarify though that this baby was not an accident. We just didn't think it would happen so easily}. 

It's funny, when I was younger I'd dream up some romantic way to tell my husband I was pregnant. In reality, I was in such disbelief and shock that all I could do was show him the two positive tests. Super romantic, I know. I really don't even remember his reaction. We just hugged each other in disbelief. 

Disbelief is how I would describe the first week of knowing I was pregnant. I had the two pregnancy tests to prove it but I still didn't believe it.